with this…
Ever since my “off” last year, ive had a growing problem that is now getting to me so much that my ride out on monday with andyp and his mates to Walton on Naze was sorta ruined for me, for the stupidness i did, only this time andy was behind me and i felt shite cos he carries his missus on the back and if anything had happened cos of my f***in dumbness, i wouldnt have forgiven myself !!!
My accident happened on a roundabout, approached, slowed down then hit a pothole and was sent flying, BUT when i realised i was in trouble, i braked again, hard… when maybe i shouldnt have, cos that made my bike tip and i went over the top and the bike followed and we ended up somersaulting for england…(saying that, it is quite hard to think straight with all that going on…but still no excuse)…
Anyway, busted knee still ongoing, i got back on my bike, once i had it all repaired…fine…BUT in my head now is that picture of me flying through the air, and being SO lucky to be alive…(ive lost mates since that time, for less believe me, and it always humbles me to think about it)…but now, i cant get my line right on approaching and taking a sharper bend…i mean, it NEVER used to worry me, i just took the corners and bends with ease, didnt even have to think much about them? NOW im thinking too much about them and f***in them up! Im going into the bend, braking when i shouldnt, getting my lines well and truely wrong, and end up just making the turn in time before hitting the edge of the road or kerb…then beating myself up and looking for the next bend and worrying about it before i even get to it…
Ive gotta sort this out…im seriously peed off with it…i get on the bike, all ready to enjoy a ride, come to a bluddy bend or corner and straight away worry, worry, worry…
Sorry Andy for messing up that bend…i know what its like cos i follow the rider in fronts line as well…well, used to…now i just sit and worry if im gonna make it myself, holding my breath till i get round it…im fed up !!
So, i need some advice, although had a good chat with Andys mate in the cafe about it…and he did make sense…but applying it is another thing…im bottling it before i make the corner now and that is peeing me off big time !!
Come on you lot, youve seen me ride my bike…what am i gonna do? Shall i go back to riding out alone again for a while to get my ol confidence back (not that im having a prob actually riding my bike tho?) Have i been riding in packs for too long now and lost my “edge”?
Whats the best advice you can apply to someone whos in my place? Why am i getting myself in the wrong position, and i bluddy know im doing it? This is like when you practice U turns and keep having to put your foot down, till you get it right !
Ive gotta get out more on those country lanes on my own and just ride em aint i? How do you judge what line to be in…why am i turning too late and then grabbing the damn brake?..FFS !!! GRRRRRRR


Sherrie? pm sent back to ya mate ! ta